~A Little of Something~

…expressions of thoughts and feelings…

Heedlessness

Filed under: Uncategorized — munawarahmohdizam at 7:38 pm on Saturday, October 17, 2009

Heedlessness affects the faculty of thought and restrains us from intellectual thinking. Apparently, we hardly take the time to engross in deep thinking. Often, we choose to be at a heedless state to escape ourselves from the many responsibilities that are ‘burdened’ upon us. But, have we ever thought how; long and how far can we run away from those responsibilities?

If we try to reflect back and think of all the little happenings in life, we would see and marvel at the wonders of God’s creation. Sadly, we frequently commit ourselves in unneccessary thinking that leads us to the misapprehension of our roles and responsibilities as a being. For instance, we always find the time to reflect on worldly affairs such as on our endless love and relationship issues that are not that much worth of thinking compared to issues that should be of priority such as ‘what should i and shoudn’t i do today to make me a better person’, ‘what would have happened if i woke up this morning without the ablity to speak or see? am i prepared for that?’.

Unfortunately, being in a heedless state is surprisingly a cultural heritage. Have we ever encountered a situation whereby we think a lot about an issue that is worth of thinking, but then, the people around us would ask us not to think too much about it? Well, i have. So, i believe it is crucial for us to encourage deep thinking as it may lead us back to the realization of our roles and responsibilities as a being in God’s world. And hopefully from there, we will try to do something, make a small move to acheive God’s blessings and to plant the seeds for the crops that we can harvest and benefit in the Hereafter.

family comes first

Filed under: Uncategorized — munawarahmohdizam at 12:24 am on Saturday, October 17, 2009

Friends come and go. So do foes. huhu. But the one thing that’ll remain by your side, that you’ll forever have to support you during your ups and downs, is your FAMILY. I’m so grateful to be blessed with a blissful family that i treasure most. And above all, I’m blessed with loving and responsible parents who would endlessly (and tanpa jemu too) advise us to remain as one regardless.

Ayah selalu reminds us to always help one another, and jgn ada perasaan iri hati among us because it can destroy the bond between us. It’s a shame to see real cases all around us, whereby adik beradik x ngaku adik beradik because of benda-benda duniawi..nauzubillah.

I don’t know, whenever ayah talks about family, it saddens me. True, family comes first, friends, they’re only be there during the good times, and mostly will abandon you during your tough times. So, cherish our families and loved ones.

Early rise early shine, make your day as bright as mine (^_^)

Filed under: Uncategorized — munawarahmohdizam at 5:37 pm on Sunday, October 11, 2009

Oh, yes! I’m up early today, which is really unusual. After Subuh, i took my shower, packed a few things to bring along to the picnic with a bunch of my dearest friends and taraaaaa~ here i am, sitting in front of my lappy, sipping dutch lady choc flavoured milk and ears plugged with the ear phone (im listening to the blower’s daughter currently).

It feels good to be up early, the fresh air, the quietness, the coolness; just perfect. But i wonder, though i like the atmosphere a lot, i find it hard to do that as a routine. I want to change though, i want to wake up early from now on~ (cewah, the spirit! ye je! gagaga~)

As usual, every morning, when i wake up, I will check both my handphones to see whether i have missed any calls from anybody or received any messages from anyone. Yes, there was one message that i got, a message that made me sad.

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Today we’re going picnic at either genting sempah or …ok, i don’t remember the name of the other place. I packed some jajan to bring along too. I’m all hyped up about the picnic because i just love it, spending good time with good friends. That’s just amazing :) Especially that this is our final last 2 months together as an undergrad before we go our separate ways next year (aigoo..sad mode la~ huhu).

Hmm..hope to have some fun, a reasonable one of course because ayah always reminds us to not to get tooooo excited over things so that ‘tak lupa diri’. Oh, it’s already 8.33am! Nak bertolak at 9.15am jap lagi. I better get going. Taaa!

p/s: i wish u’re here to join in the fun

From the eyes of a child :)

Filed under: Uncategorized — munawarahmohdizam at 10:55 am on Saturday, October 10, 2009

Hari nh i nak tulis using a mixture of languages sebab..ntah. I can’t think of a reason sebenarnya. Tapi for today’s post, i nak cerita pasal a student of mine. He’s a Chinese good looking 12 year old boy and he’s from the first class.

Hari th dia tanya whether I dah ada bf ke belum. I pn cakapla xde. He was surprised and he thought that I was lying to him. I cakap la xde maknanya i nak tipu about it. I pn jokingly asked him to find me one. Haha. Pasth dia tanya la, i ske which type of guy. I pn listed down all the criteria such as baek hati, caring, good looking and etc.

Suddenly he said ‘Miss Muna, that sounds like me.’ :p Apparently, he offered himself to be my boyfriend. I was laughing out loud at the offer coz i thought it was hilarious, imagine, a 12 year old little boy offered to be my boyfriend! hahahaha.

I pn kata kat dia, if you want to be my bf, you have to have a car and a house at least, dengan harapan dia akan putus asa. Pasth he replied, i have books, miss muna. I cam terkejut la.. what, books? uhuk2~ excuse me. :p hehehe.. Then he repeated his answer, yes, i have books…i can read the books to you if you want, miss muna.

And then i was like…awww..sweetnya budak nh..huhu. I sangat tersentuh dengan his sincerity. Dia xde kete nor a house to offer me. All he owns are books, that is all that he can offer, by reading HIS books to me. Seriously, little children are soooo naive. In their eyes, that is love. How i wish little children would retain those type of perceptions even as they grow older.

The path that’s taken

Filed under: Uncategorized — munawarahmohdizam at 3:40 am on Thursday, October 8, 2009

the long winding journey..

crooked and thorny..

pool of tears..

the endless fears.

a journey that’s so vague,

a journey that can even cause a plague,

a journey of uncertainties,

and a journey of calamities.

i came to a junction,

yet i took the wrong turn,

a path that led me to no where,

how could i even bare?..

i chose the path,

i walked the steps,

treading  a crooked line,

acting as things would be fine.

the wrong turn,

the path that’s taken.

“Hi! I’m Miss Muna!”: When A Trainee Teacher Talks… (^_^)

Filed under: Uncategorized — munawarahmohdizam at 10:20 am on Tuesday, October 6, 2009

When I first began my practicum at SK Kampung Tunku, Petaling Jaya,  I was terrified with what to expect from the school, teachers and primarily, the students. In the first week, we were bombarded with all these information on how the students would behave in class, how they would correct a teacher’s English, how they would observe what we wear to school every day and many more interesting things. At the beginning, I was quite nervous thinking about these and whether the students would accept me or not. Yet, I tried to keep an open mind regardless of all the information that we received from the teachers. I did not want to swallow and retain all these perceptions without really getting to know them first. As such, the first time I entered both my classes, I entered fresh, without any prejudice towards them, yet at the same time, trying to be careful with my words and actions. Praise to God the Almighty, everything turned out to be fine even until the last day of my practicum at the school.

Throughout the 12 weeks, I could see that I have really grown and developed in all aspects, especially in the teaching of the language to the students. This training period was a good platform for me to experiment with the many teaching and learning strategies that I learnt theoretically in class and lectures. I also took this opportunity to put into practice my teaching beliefs that effective teaching and learning will only take place when the students enjoy their learning. I find that some teaching strategies worked best with the students while some did not. For example, I once experimented teaching grammar in isolation whereby the whole 30 minutes lesson was geared towards the teaching of the simple past tense. However, I find that the lesson was dry and boring in which involved very little participation from the students since I was the one who did most of the talking in the class. As such, from the lesson, I decided that I should not opt for the teaching of grammar in isolation.

Nevertheless, from my experience, I also discovered that the students really enjoyed their learning through activities such as the hot seating, creative writings, singing songs and playing games that I conducted in class. This is because the activities were mostly enjoyable and fun, which motivated the students to take part in the teaching and learning and eventually contribute to an effective and memorable learning. I also incorporated the teaching of the language contents such as grammar items through the activities conducted. For instance, through hot seating, I integrated ‘Wh’ questions in the lesson. The students enjoyed the lesson and they were excited to ask questions to the person in the hot seat without realizing that they were actually practicing ‘Wh’ questioning. In fact, when I did revision with the class, they could recall on what I had actually taught for that particular lesson, i.e. ‘Wh’ questions, as the activity was memorable to them.

In addition to that, I also learnt on organizing classroom activities. Throughout my practicum, I tried out different ways of organizing group work such as individual work, whole class, pairs and also group work. The groupings were mostly random. From experiments, I discovered that the students enjoyed and learnt best through group work. However, the group works that were mostly carried out were developed from individual work and pair work. For example, in one of my literature lessons, the students were required to compose a shape poem on food. To start of the lesson, I asked the students to individually write two sentences using two different adjectives to describe the food that they were given. Then, the lesson developed by asking the students to share the sentences they had written with a person of a similar food item. After that, all five students with the similar food item were grouped together to share their sentences and to come up with a poem on the food item. From the activities, I learnt that the development in the organization of the activities helped to create active participation among the students. Everyone were involved and contributed to the activity. They also learnt from one another as they tried to complete the given task. Furthermore, the students enjoyed carrying out group work and they would request for me to carry out group work more often.

Classroom management wise, I had no major problems in handling the students during the teaching and learning even though there were three or four students who constantly needed to be reminded and reprimanded to stop talking and to complete the tasks given. In tackling this sort of situation, I would normally call out the students’ names and look at the misbehaved students. They would then stop talking and continue with their work. In terms of managing the class, I believe that the teacher should not be strict and put on a stern face at all times. Students are human beings with feelings. Thus, I believe that humour should also be injected in the lessons at intervals of time in order to create an enjoyable and stress free learning environment. Therefore, in all my lessons, I tried to keep a balance between being strict and laughing at jokes with the students so that they enjoy my English lessons. I think it paid off as I received motivating and good feedbacks from the students who commented that they really enjoyed my lessons.

Apart from that, I also believe that at certain times, I should not control myself from being friends with the students since I can get to know them better by doing so. I tried to loosen up a little so that the students can see me as an approachable person. Thus, this made way for the students to see me as somebody who they can trust and share about their worries and problems. For example, one of my students confessed that before I taught her English, she would always play truant since she was too scared to come to school. This was because her former English teacher is a very strict person who would scold and even slap students on the face if they do something wrong. However, as I took over the class, the student admitted that she enjoys coming to school and learning English during my lessons. I never realized such an impact I made on the student’s life. At least, I hope, as she attends school and sits in the class during my lesson, she will acquire and learn something rather than being afraid of the teacher, resulting to absenteeism and eventually learning nothing. Thus, I develop a belief that a teacher should be reasonable and humanistic in managing the students so that they will develop a love towards coming to school.

Besides teaching and learning aspects, I also acquired new skills and knowledge in handling co-curricular activities. During my practicum, I joined scouts, environmental club and also ‘Kelab Olahraga’. The activities were carried out on Saturdays from 8.00am to 11.30am. From the activities, I was exposed to how to lead a club, planning out activities, writing reports, training the students and many more. For example, since I am quite active and familiar with track and field events and had represented IPBA in the events during KAGUM, I was asked by the club advisor to train the club members in relay. So, I tried to apply what I know and what I had experienced in training the students in relay. I discovered that it was rather difficult to do so since I had no experience in training students in sports. But I tried my best and did some research in advance to help me with the training. I also learnt from observing the teacher as he trained the students in other events. In general, it was a good and beneficial learning experience for me to help me in handling co-curricular activities.

Apart from that, in order to maximize my learning experiences during the training, I also managed to make other contributions to the school. For example, I became the emcee for the Independence Celebration day, I was one of the judges for the fashion show and choir singing competition in conjuction with the Independence Celebration month and I also took relief classes and taught the weakest class when my cooperating teacher was on medical leave for a month. I also performed on stage in conjunction with the Eid celebration, which was a very interesting experience. In addition to that, we were also asked to produce a script for choral speaking as a project with the school.

To encapsulate things, I had the chance to experience and learn a lot of things from various aspects all throughout my 12 weeks of practicum at SK Kampung Tunku, Petaling Jaya. This was partly due to the help and guidance that I received from different parties such as my parents, the school administrator, the teachers, lecturers, my supervisor, my cooperating teacher and mostly from my experiences with the students; my heartiest gratitude to all. Though I am still an amateur in this teaching field, I hope that all the knowledge that I have acquired from my practicum will be of great help as I start my teaching career early next year. I hope to learn much more as I go and eventually become an expert in the field when the time comes.

Fame or friends?..friends or danger?..hmmm

Filed under: Uncategorized — munawarahmohdizam at 10:22 pm on Sunday, September 6, 2009

I came across this article in a backdated Reader’s Digest on the purpose of all those so-called community websites such as Facebook, Friendster, Myspace and such. Well, in the article, people’s responses on the fuctions of all these websites were gathered. Some agreed that these websites help us to connect and keep in touch with our friends that we meet throughout our journey of life whilst making new friends as we go along the way (i totally agree with this).

But there was also a response from this young lad who viewed all these sites only as a means for the account users to achieve their own fame, where they can post their photos for others to view, freely write what they have in mind in the comment box and etc. Reading the response, I was like ‘yeah, thats kinda true too but only to a certain extent’. Haha.

It is a place for me to keep up with friends from primary schools, high schools, colleges, universities, friends that I met during my traveling and etc. In addition, i also make new friends from the sites. As such, my circle of friends just grows bigger, and bigger and bigger. There’s no harm with having many friends as i get to learn from them as i get to know them. In addition, it just helps to broaden up our minds to new things, issues and etc. So, all these community websites do help a lot in order to achieve these things.

But, to a certain extent, these websites can also be dangerous and damaging. For instance, some weirdos might simply take the pictures we upload on the sites and use them for their own weird activities. I once stumbled into a video clip on youtube of all the pictures of pretty Malay girls (which he retrieved from their pages…and one of the girls in the clip happened to be an acquaintance of a friend of mine) prepared by a guy (who had nothing better to do in life) with the title ‘gadis melayu bertudung yg cantik2′ or something like that. See! People can simply use the photos we upload on the websites for unnecessary things!

So, as a prevention, we could actually set the account as a private profile, never except strangers to be in our list of friends, and better off, do not put up any inviting pictures on the website (huhu..but i don’t do that unfortunately). In general, it’s up to individuals to decide how to make full wise use of all these available websites whilst trying to avoid the dangers that it may bring.

The one thing that kept me smiling yesterday :)

Filed under: Uncategorized — munawarahmohdizam at 9:14 pm on Saturday, September 5, 2009

Yesterday was not a so-bad day after all, except for the dillema of where to break the fast. Yes, I was totally out of idea what to have for berbuka. I wanted to go out, yet I had no idea where to go. So i ended up lying in bed, with a laptop next to me, facebooking until 6.05pm whilst panicking that it was almost time for berbuka and i had not yet bought anything to break fast with.

I couldn’t care less because I was so much engrossed in a conversation with the person whom i care even more. Its been a while since the last time we talked so it was a good feeling to be able to talk to the person. I felt a little relieved to be able to share my grouses and concerns with the person. The person seemed to understand me better when it comes to this (as that’s how i would like to think of it).

Then we had like a heart to heart conversation. I was open to the person. I felt satisfied to finally being able to say and tell all those things that i wanted to say to the person since forever. I really meant all those things that I said and told the person. It was purely from the heart. I know I’m being a bit too melodramatic here, but really, it was a good talk.

It was then when the person actually said what I wanted to hear from the person’s mouth, something that I’ve been waiting since ‘zaman paleolitik’ (ok, thats just a paradox..but that’s what I told the person). Very little words yet very meaningful. The words that could change everything that I am now, and we are now if the person had said it a little earlier. I really wish the person had said it a little earlier because if i knew, I wouldn’t give up hope and i would have fought for it. But those words actually kept me smiling and bubbly yesterday (especially after being able to see the person and even talked to the person in person). Thank you to you.

p/s: I’m sorry that I unintentionally hurt you even though that’s the last thing that I would do.

Even when broken it still works

Filed under: Uncategorized — munawarahmohdizam at 8:30 pm on Wednesday, August 26, 2009

I was reading this novel by Cecilia Ahern and i was much attracted to the line

And still, my heart pumps on…even when broken it still works’.

A broken watch will not tell the correct time, a broken vase will no longer hold flowers, a broken car will not move yet a broken heart will always work. Though the heart will work in pain, it still pumps on.

As it keeps pumping, it learns to heal. Though that may take up some time, it will eventually heal. Trust me. I also learn that during the healing process, the heart has to endure so much agony and pain. Sadness and tears are part and parcel of it as the memories keep flooding in. Nevertheless, the heart learns to let go of the memories (even if it is tough) and the brain starts to think of things in a brighter way. This is when you begin to see the glass as half full rather than viewing it as half empty.

As you move on, you realize how fortunate you are to have to go through such heart aches as it helps you to grow, to mature and to become wiser. During that period, you also notice that there are still sooooo many people around you who care about you and who love you regardless. Thus, the heart is wounded by the unconditional love and the support that you get from those lovely people around you. Then you will feel grateful that the once broken heart did not stop pumping as you get to experience love once again.Hurrah for the heart!! (^_~)

~And the heart continues to pump on to the melodious melody…~

Rain, rain go away~

Filed under: Uncategorized — munawarahmohdizam at 1:01 am on Monday, August 10, 2009

Wait!

No, rain!

Stop!

Don’t go!

Come back, please!

Please stay and rain!

Coz it soothes me…

The smell when u rain…calms me…

I like to see u hitting the windows as u rain..

I like to see you touching the leaves..

and washing away the dusts and the grimes…

And when you rain,

I’d snuggle on a couch…

and closely admire your beauty and the tranquility that you bring.

So rain, don’t go away.

Please, stay.

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